with another 10 hours to the start of the first paper,
i know that i have to sleep early.
I want to do so.
but i just carn!
i tried all ways and means to fall asleep,
but guess that it might be bcos i seldom slp so early,
den in e end, wan slp oso kannt fall aslp.
i know that this is no gd.
no gd at all!!

tried b4 in one exam, and e feeling was terrible when
i tried doing the paper.
not so much of wanting to close my eyes, and yawning away...
but my mind just couldn focus.
couldn think.
couldn rmb.
and i dun wan tt to happen again.
so here i am forcing myself to slp,
counting the stoopid sheeps jumping across the fence...
counting the no. of stars in my imaginary sky..
and what's not.
bt i just carn.

i guess i'm afraid.
the next 3 days would be a period of super intensive studying.
just studying, and hopin that evrything goes in.
and stays in there until the next day.
the JCT wld nt so much be a "yeah i pass, or nooo i failed" thing
bt more or less a confirmation of the my "correct" method of studying,
and the affirmation that i needed for the amt of effort that i've put in.
*k i noe that it is not much laa.. but i trieeed my best le.*
i want to do well.
i want to prove to them that i can do it.
bt i am afraid.
afraid that i kannt make it.
afraid of that " but all was in vain..."

the time now is 3.08am.
i want to sleep. i need to sleep.
till the nxt time i blogg,
gd luck, and
gd night.